Current mood:

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i'm a complete fucking mess, and i'm tired of pretending that i'm not simply to spare the feelings of others. 
i don't know what to do with myself anymore, i really don't. i wish people would do what i want them to, but asking that of people is simply irrational and selfish. but then again, when have i EVER been rational OR unselfish?
jesus fucking christ, i just can't stand myself right now. i'm being such a fucking whiner. 
i want to either fast forward 4 or so months, or rewind 6 months, and start things fresh, and more slowly. 
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i keep complaining that i'm bored and have nothing to do, yet i'm getting shitty grades because i dread doing my schoolwork. i wish i could just wake the fuck up and stop being such a MORON. 

you should probably just ignore this entry, it's ridiculous.